After my grief induced meltdown last Sunday for the Super Bowl, I really wasn’t sure if this weekend would be awful or ok. I was nervous that grief would rear its ugly head this weekend while I had the kids. Thankfully though, this weekend has had enough variety of random, rambunctious, and radical things happen, that the grief stayed away.
I knew I wanted to do something for my kids, so I started the weekend by picking up cookies from my favorite cookie lady and amazing friend. Leah seriously makes the best cookies ever, but is an even better friend to me. I came to pick them up and ended up staying for a couple hours hanging out with her and some friends while our kids ran rambunctiously around the house playing. Although, I ended the evening feeling SO old, I came to the realization that I’ve lived a lot of life in my 35 years, and experienced a wide variety of things. I joke frequently and say that I’ve lived enough life for three people, but in all reality that’s true; and not necessarily a bad thing.
The next day I knew I needed to run some errands, but they ended up taking a much larger portion of my day than I expected. I did decide to treat myself with some flowers. I started doing this after my second divorce. I had a divorce bucket list, which I’ll have to share later, but one of the things on the bucket list was to buy yourself flowers. I did that at least once a month the year after that divorce when I was finding myself. Sam’s Club is always my go to for inexpensive beautiful flowers. I have picked up the habit again and thought Valentine’s was a great time to buy myself some. Putting them in the living room made me smile to see them so beautiful sitting there.
Later that afternoon one of my sweet friends randomly texted me to see if I would be home for her to drop something off. By the time I finally made it home, it was much later in the day than I anticipated being home, but Sumar came by when I got back into town. She brought all of my kiddos Valentine’s goodie bags with sweets and a ballon for each of them. She had a gift for me as well, which I was not expecting. She had got me a beautiful James Avery necklace that was a pair of wings. I was already emotional when I saw it, but then she told me to flip it over. On the back she had engraved “Chris” with a heart and “#serendipity”, which had been the hashtag I used in all our silly social media posts. I cried like a baby when I read it, but they were such good tears. My oldest son immediately asked if I was ok. I could tell he was concerned and I told him they were happy tears from such good memories in such a sweet gift.
The weekend has ended with completely radical weather for Texas. We are literally hunkered down for the snowpocalyps 2021. This Texas blizzard is supposed to bring anywhere between 3-9 inches of snow in the next 24 hours. Schools have gone virtual, people are sliding off roads, and they are even suggesting to limit your electricity usage due to a strain on the power grid! The low is in the single digits tomorrow which hasn’t happened in this part of Texas since the early 80’s. The big kids dad and I decided it was better to take them to his house today than to try and wait until tomorrow, since it seems that the roads will likely be impassable. My van looked like it had been through some crazy ice storm by the time I made it back home. Check on your Texas friends. We are not ok with this weather.
The storm has also left me with no nurse tonight for Zeke, which means a long night of checking on him. There is no rest for the weary when it comes to a medically complex child. The fear of losing power is a real thing when it comes to all of Zeke’s medical equipment. I started the generator today to make sure it was working fine just in case we were to lose power due to the snow and ice. I have learned with Zeke that although fear is definitely a liar, it has caused me to be more prepared in these specific instances when it comes to Zeke. That preparation helps me to remember that I don’t need to fear, God has this, has prepared the way for it, and that I need to just keep calm, and enjoy this crazy Texas snow!
Fear is a Liar 
❤️
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